Bah, humbug

Very hard to pull out of a bad/down in the dumps/overwhelmed/where in da hell is my life going type mood. I took the day off on Friday to observe another school district, school, and age group. I'm glad I did it - but I missed a field trip, and I'm second guessing that decision. In business, if you need a day off, you take one that is going to be light on duties. So that's the same way I went here - no teaching on field trip days, so it made sense. But another teacher pointed out that the kids won't remember that you were absent on the day they learned fractions. They will remember that you missed a cool trip to the aquarium. Sigh. I guess it's a lesson learned by a newbie.

I still don't know where I'll be next year. Do I move? Do I sell the house? Will I be a teacher? Should I be a greeter at Walmart. Ugh. You see why I'm down? I quit working in the business field to be a teacher, now I don't know if I'll be one, and I'm scared that after 4 years out of the business field I won't get a job back in it if I tried. Seriously, I'm hating this position I'm in. I'm not motivated, I just want school to be over, and I'm grumpy as hell. Bah humbug.